So my last post ended with my first migraine occurrence. After this the migraines continued at regular intervals but medication was a problem as I got so sick I couldn’t keep it down. I also learnt that the weird out of body experience, visual disturbances and tingling in hands that i got 10/20minutes before the headache is called an Aura. This gives me a warning sign that a migraine is coming and sends me running for the tablets. Always hoping I will keep them down long enough to work before the vomiting starts (this never happens though !).
The migraines really peaked around age 12 in my first year of secondary school. The sick bay became my second home complete with sick bucket. My mum was called endless times to collect me. The symptoms were so severe I couldn’t feel my left arm, leg, face, tongue and spoke with slurred speech. The only help was sleep in a quiet dark room with regular toilet trips to vomit. The pain so unbearable that even blinking felt like a chainsaw through my brain. The migraines would last a day then return the day after next leaving my body drained of all energy. Thankfully the severity and frequency tapered down to 3 or so a year as I got older which was more manageable but still so inconvenient never knowing when it would strike. I had feelings of anxiety travelling too far from home in case I was taken ill which tended to happen at the worst moments.
**My top migraine inconveniences**
1. At school being taken home by my mum and throwing up in the bin in the foyer in front of everyone.Not a good look for a self conscious 13 year old !
2. On a night out aged 18 spent ages getting ready met a friend, travelled to the venue. Get inside to the bar and order a drink and bam bloody Aura strikes. Really !! Rushed out of bar into a cab and got home just in time for the vomiting to commence.
3. Woke early and travelled two hours by train to a work training course with a colleague. Sat down and the course commenced ten minutes in oh god my eyes are going Aura strikes. Left my colleague and stumbled out to the toilet. My god this was a bad one projectile vomiting out of my mouth and nose. Slumped on the toilet floor. Colleague comes to find me and looks really disturbed.I Phone my dad with an sos to pick me up I’m so thankful as I would have been carted to hospital for sure !
4. Planned to go out and a few hours before I was due to leave the migraines started. Usual feelings of I can’t do this anymore/it’s ruining my life/someone remove my brain were running through my head.On this occasion I was stuck in a cycle of constant vomiting and pain for eight hours solid while my mum kept me cool as I slurred get me a doctor in desperation.
So yeah migraines are certainly not cool, not a normal headache and do change your life. At the back of my mind a practical part of me has to plan ahead if something were to happen and make sure I carry my medication at all times. I like to think I don’t let migraines control me but if I’m honest with myself over the years I have avoided plans or events that I was worried could trigger an attack. Self preservation I guess as when they happen i feel so out of control and vulnerable who wouldn’t want to avoid that ! xx